Today I'm Going To...

One: Say NO to the Meh Stage

I skipped writing yesterday. Just skipped it. I could have done it—it wasn’t like I was so busy that I didn’t have time or forgot. I’d climbed into bed and turned out the light instead of reaching down to grab my prompt journal to scribble out a line or two for the day. Writing didn’t matter to me at that moment.

Reading hasn’t mattered either. I spend most of my days taking care of my daughter and scrolling mindlessly through TikTok. Oh, and watching Bluey. We love our Bluey and have started over with season one for the millionth time. I could use the rest of season three soon, please.

It’s been easy to not care about things that usually give me enjoyment, like books or writing or doing this post for the blog. Doesn’t help that this is the second time I’m writing this post because the first time something went wrong, and the website erased the post. I am wiser now and am writing in a word document first.

I want to find enjoyment again. I want to avoid hours of endless social media scrolling. I’m going to read whenever I am giving myself downtime today! And I’m going to write, like I am right now, because even answering little prompts is good practice for my art. If I feel the meh stage creeping in, I’ll dance to some music, eat a snack, or step outside to let the fresh air do my low energy, low motivation soul some good.

Two: Tidy Up

With it being so nice the last couple of days, I’ve been outside with my daughter. Unfortunately, I overdid it the other day because I was determined to progress my labor with a higher step count. I think I might still be recovering. Due to that, I haven’t done much around the house. Today, I’m going to tidy up the kitchen, the living room, and I’ll also fold laundry.

Three: Rest

When my body is telling me to cool it, I’ll rest. I don’t want to be a zombie going through the motions of the day.

Four: Menu and Grocery List

Bless grocery pickup. I might order some things online if we don’t have time to go to the store today, but we’ve run out of dinners and my cold cereal (which I live on when I’m pregnant).

Five: Positive Thinking Regarding Labor

Having contractions for a week has given me way too much time to dwell on the, ah, “beauties” of childbirth. I’ve made myself nervous. And impatient! And upset!

I need to start thinking more positively about labor (as much as one can when I regard labor to be a bit of a horror show) and be more confident that she’s going to come. One way or another, she will come.

I need a breather. I need to be patient with myself. And I need to remind myself that I’m not a superhero. I’m a regular woman who has set five goals for herself today, and all I can do is work towards them.